I’m moving to Socal… again!
Phew! It feels good to get that out of the way first. Umm… yeeaaahh. I’m pretty sure I said that exactly 10 years ago when I got my acceptance letter for UCLA, btw. Well, I just got accepted into the Art Center of Pasadena’s Illustration program for this Fall, and I’m moving down south again!
I’m ecstatic about the things to come, about fully concentrating on making art, meeting other movers-and-shakers who are equally thrilled about creating brilliant work! Is Brent coming with me? Undetermined! Do I know what I’ll be bringing with me? Not really! Do I know where I’m gonna live? Nope! Lots of uncertainties, but I’m absolutely certain that there is much to look forward to!
I feel like I’ve been going through a metamorphosis these last few months. My body’s gone from being broken and dysfunctional, to healing almost completely, then taking a few steps back to being frail, and now back on the road to recovery. Compared to others’ situations, I know mine isn’t that bad, but using my hands IS my livelihood. I can’t remember what it FEELS like to not worry about picking a heavy-ish box, not to question how long I can sit at a computer, not to constantly remind myself to take a break, take a break, take a break. This is all for the good, though. I know it.
In the last six months, I feel like my body’s been taken apart and slowly coming back together. With the repetitive strain injury in my shoulders/hands/wherever the hell it is, in conjunction with getting pretty sick last week and my ever-shifting teeth with braces, I’ve really come to value my body in ways I didn’t appreciate before. This is the only vessel I have for the rest of my life — I really can’t risk messing it up any more than it already is. Like anything else I cherish, I’ve been learning to nurture my body more. Along the way, I’ve come to understand that my stress is carried out throughout my body and one of the keys to healing is to just.chill.out.
For starters, I’m taking regular keyboard breaks. Everyone always recommends this, yet it’s sooo hard to develop the habit to take breaks. Not taking breaks regularly is what put me in this mess to begin with. Nothing at work/on the internet is worth breaking my body further. For every 30 minutes that I’m on the computer, I take 10-15 minutes to break away from the keyboard, doing some stretches and exercises to activate muscles I don’t use enough.
This helps me break away from stressful work, get some good air into my bloodstream, and take some time for myself. One of my favorite breaks is to lay on the floor for 15 minutes, literally taking some weight off my shoulders — a great rejuvenator!
I swimming at least three times a week. I’m not that good at it but I love it! It’s incredibly therapeutic for me to calmly flow across the water. I concentrate on regulating my breathing and working on some of my stroke techniques (heh heh).
This helps me calm my mind while working out my entire body. The regulated breathing takes me away from the stressful to-do lists that exist outside of the pool. When I’m in the pool, I only concentrate on swimming and being in the present. I love swimming.
I’m surrounding myself with positive people and thoughts.The power of happiness and laughter can work wonders. I’m certain that seeing the good things in life will help my body heal faster. Cuz we are the champions. No time for (emotional) losers. Nor negative nancy’s.
This also includes making time for fun! And also means I’m trying to bitch less, and be less judgmental of others. No good for nobody.
Acupuncture.Ugghhhhh! I absolutely don’t like it at all. At this point, I’m open to trying it out to see if it’ll help stimulate my body a bit more to heal more successfully. It’s not that I’m scared of needles. I just don’t like how it feels.
I’m seeing my family acupuncturist twice a week, with about 30 needles per session. :/ I don’t like the ones that go in my hands. On the plus side, the doctor only speaks Mandarin. So, I’ve been learning to hear Mandarin, and am learning some new phrases!
Speaking of fears, I’m doing more things outside of my comfort zone. Acupuncture, for one. (Attempting) to let go of things that are no biggy. Eating foods that I don’t usually like (onions, runny eggs — YUCK!). Trying not to be scared about flexing some of my language skills, no matter how minimal it may be. I might even try a roller coaster again.
I believe acknowledging these boundaries/restrictions I create for myself is a crucial step seeing the things that are prohibiting me from growing. The next step is to challenge myself to address those discomforts, face my fears, and do something about it.
Making sure I smile more! It’s the easiest path to happiness and to spread the love to others~ Really. Smiling is contagious and is built into our nature!
My body’s been going through a roller coaster, but this healing process has become much more than just fixing my body. These last six months have been dedicated to fixing MY SELF — body, mind, soul. I’ve loaded the upcoming few months with travels and outtings that will be full of laughter and many, many smiles. Like all challenges in my life, I know this chapter is something I’ll totally overcome, and this will serve to be a crucial lesson to learn from.
Lucky for me, I’ll get to carry this out into my next chapter — attending my dream art school in Pasadena!