Batz brought this idea to me a while ago, back in March of 2006. I’ve trickled in entries to my list when I remembered to take note of them.

1. The feeling of being intellectually stimulated, enlightened, i.e. Van Leuven’s lectures [03.16.06]
2. Staring at the sky and remembering how small we are compared to the Earth and the rest of the universe.
3. Incredibly great food (Zachary’s, Fenton’s, mom’s cooking).
4. Thinking about how unique the Tse family is (the jokes we share and our united love for food) [03.18.06]
5. Creating “Remember the time when…” moments. (when Matt David threw up on me, St. Patrick’s chill kickback, relaxing bonding moments)
6. Friendliness — from me, others, friendly gestures, etc.
7. When dogs look at me and smile (picture of Alex’s puppy)
8. Knowing that no matter what, I can trust that I will be loved by those that I love the most. A mutual exchange.
9. Having food dates with V.
10. Chatting with batz.
11. Being productive / accomplishing (set) goals / making positive change for the better.
12. Coming up with brilliant ideas, particularly those that seem to merge puzzle pieces together. It makes me feel smart. (Formulating well-structured essay outlines) [03.19.06]
13. Waking up next to someone I care about, who cares about me too. [03.20.06]
14. Music.
15. Watching live music.
16. Being a positive influence to my friends (LGBT issues with V & Debby)
17. Having the courage to tell people that I love them, with no regrets or fear. (Daily with V, Natalie, and Duyen, but still need toovercome for mommy and baba).
18. Singing with V.
19. Reminiscing about the good ol’ times (People making videos, reenacting NES games). [03.21.06]
20. Meeting up with my mom in a public space. (I’m so proud to know that she’s MY mom amongst everyone else). [03.23.06]
21. Seeing my family’s car pick me up at the airport.
22. Singing with my brothers. (Juanes – Dios le Pido with Conrad)
23. Being blessed with the fortune, opportunities, and friends in my life (e.g. raffles, Yahoo randomness, and below) [03.30.06]
24. batz. (no judging, 100% support, the laughs.)
25. Friends who are happy for me, completely, with no animosity, jealousness, etc. (Lum rooting me on for Yahoo)
26. This feeling of not knowing what to expect for the future. The sky is the limit. And I can truly do whatever it is I really want to do (art? activist? web designing?) No matter what, I just know I’ll love it. I’m excited.
27. When friends say, “But it didn’t just fall into your lap–you worked for it.” Not so much for RECOGNITION, but to have friends understand and KNOW that without me needing to say anything.
28. By being so extroverted, not hiding anything about myself, I know that those that love me truly love me in all aspects of me being me. (nakedness of craisin.com, Natalie: “I’ve learned so much from you” and how Peter can’t accept her past.)
29. When friends let me BE. (No judging, being appreciative, vs. ___ saying that I want a relationship when I don’t.)
30. Being ABLE. (to talk / interact well, to make a picture mat, to listen)
31. Mom’s cooking (today: beef & green beans)
32. LOST – researching, thinking, talking, watching. Because it makes me THINK, it stimulates my brain like CRAZY.
33. LINDA VAN LEUVEN. Knowing that she has changed my life everyday since Soc130, knowing that she has empowered me, that she teaches love, and how to love.
34. Accomplishing a task everyday. (Eugenia’s bet on me writing a task in for each day of my planner.)
35. When S________ calls.
36. Having a but-i.
37. Santoso Djohari. (Wednesday morning dimsum). [04.05.06]
38. Party planning. (NPP: No Pants Party evite) [04.11.06]
39. Knowing that so many of us are so alike, that my interests are not alone, and that I can share them with people alike. (hooking up)
40. Being able to be comfortable with having casual relationships with people I like.
41. When guys want me too.
42. Anne.
43. How easy it was to befriend the Dieps so quickly.
44. Discovering new music. (Panic! At the Disco)
45. Overcoming my fears (being the bigger person and breaking the awkwardness)
46. Sitting / being outside during the spring time (Bruinwalk people watching) [04.19.06]
47. Making springtime / summertime memories.
48. Swimming.
49. Mariokart shittalking.
50. Coming up with art project ideas – the process of. (brainstorming, multiple ideas, picking and choosing, developing, adding on, visualizing, committing, DOING.)
51. When music fits along with the moment. (Five for Fighting – 100 years while sitting on Bruinwalk, waiting for class to start – people flowing to/from class, green leaves starting to come out on trees, with a soft spring breeze in my hair. And I smell like chlorine.)
52. Roommate love. (Shot anticipating for a week.) [05.18.06]
53. Ivan. (Grey Goose / Katamari shirt)
54. Happy people. (Memorial Day weekend with Jackie, Janice, Phuong, Harvey, and Ryan.) [05.31.06]
55. OZMA development. (anticipating their shows, Daniel Brummel responding back to me – Bruin Plaza show).
56. Having the first thought in the morning to be an excitement for life, to be excited for a new DAY. (Dreaming about beaching it with Jackie, Janice, Phuong, James, Jeff, Eric, Grace ; Ozma dreaming.)
57. The amazing sunny Socal weather – anticipating the summer
58. Being oh so excited about taking an art class (Ota -Art 30C – acrylic painting) [06.21.06]
59. Knwoing that I have the ability and skills to meet new people and be able to get along with them easily — and also when I know what to do when I DON’T want to know/talk to people. Making myself accessible / unaccessible.
60. Food Buddies – there for each other, 24/7. (Natty, V, the bros.) [06.27.06]
61. Doing art. (Ota’s class)
62. Laughing. Smiling. [08.16.06]
63. Knowing and believing that I have and am doing good, and am helping other people. And thus,
64. The feeling of my friends acknowledging, recognizing, and appreciating what I have done for them. That’s what I strive for, that feeling [of affirmation]. (V, Natty, Nancy, Phuong). “No action is completely selfless.”
65. That I was able to take part and share in the history of Apt. 303 @ 540 Midvale. FromWanda’s grad party to Natty’s Party to coming up with her nickname to kayaking to NPP to extreme efforts of cockblocking to the end of club303 to the many orphans of e303 to the very end. We reigned. We ruled. We owned.
66. When Jacob does that thing where he looks at you crazy and continues doing whatever really slowly, staring at you like you’re nuts.
67. Seinfeld.
68. The Debby & Mike Yo combination:
    

    “What does W.C. stand for?”
    “Water closet, haha….”
    “Why? Because everyone uses you? Why?”
    “Hahahaha YOU HO ESTELLA”

69. Big Tomy’s chili cheese fries.
70. Summer days at the beach (Grace & Zuma)
71. Walking down the shorelines, on the moist sand, seeing the water form pressured spots under and around my feet
72. Dogs. (Jacob’s – any dogs I encounter)
73. Being at a point in my life where I seem to be fully content and accepting of the things that are as they are in my life yet being able to see things to improve and work for. (What’s the point in life to be completely stagnant? When you are completely okay with the things in your life, what is the point to keep living and taking up the space and resources that you do? There is a point and reason for every life.)
74. Honestly, not needing to worry about money, especially to eat. [08.18.06]
75. SNAKES ON A PLANE ~~~~~:>~
76. Joking about being a boy — being able to wear boys’ clothes.
77. Finally being able to be friends with Him, to joke and talk with him the way I do with others. Casualness. No more uber awkwardness.
78. When I’m able to not be short with my family — actually learning to love and appreciate their presence.
79. Building this sketchbook.
80. Dinosaur Comics and White Ninja Comics
81. Renewing bonds. (Robert and wanting to catch up with each other – the excitement of. He reminds me of Abe.) [08.27.06]
82. Watching Conan O’Brien with Conrad downstairs [08.30.06]
83. Labor Day Weekend 2006 – Friso with batz, meeting Phuong’s friends, living their lives. [09.05.06]
84. Playing at the park – Huntington Park swings with no barriers
85. Having crushes and being able to bond, spend time, and laugh with them too–and how they flirt back too.
86. Interacting with Henry So — no games, open and honest — no fear, no embarrassment. (the spontaneity of jumping in?) [09.08.06]
87. Hanging out with Mauricio, Sarah, Eugenia like we used to (Dinner @ Lococo’s – “Can we have the check?” “oh look it’s here.”)
88. Good wholesome, sober fun. (Labor day weekend with Phuong, Ryan, Henry, Jason, Jonny, etc. ; e303)
89. Oakland. Oakland folks. (Chillin with James, Jacob, and Sofia at the Oakland Hills, residential construction spot) [09.10.06]
90. Knowing that I’m special to Henry,that I believe it when he says I’m the only one that makes him laugh the way he does when we’re together. Knowing that I can make him laugh (I’ve got the intimidating, mean, “jerky” guy without actually having all that.) [09.20.06]
91. Being stupid with Man. How she reminds me of the days when there was so much less to think about. Less responsibilities/work. Return to innocence, even. How we grew up together. [10.12.06]
92. When the whole family is getting along. When mommy and baba are stably happy together. [10.24.06]
93. Being productive (working and accomplishing tasks) [01.30.07]
94. Doing what I want to do. Being allowed to — by the parents, by my friends, by myself — LGBT work. Little steps at a time.
95. Learning how to give. (computer, to Henry, to others.)
96. Having a computer that’s my own.
97. Being immature and as childish as I feel (with Greg, Norvelle, and Eugenia). LAUGHING with them. [08.20.07]
98. Going to Toronto — the TO crew. Aunti Margaret’s cooking, the jokes about Uncle John, the consecutive days of 100% laughing.
99. Getting back into art / Finally pursuing it. Gaining up the courage to step up and perform. (Bringing craisin.com back, applying for web design job, wanting to go to art classes.)
100. Being alive. Learning and experiencing the ups and downs of friendships, relationships, paths taken, career choices, and essentially everything that I am.

There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you, and there are times to go out into the world and find such things for yourself.
– The Carnivorous Carnival, Lemony Snicket’s Series of Unfortunate Events