Middle Middle

Everyone’s alive and well
Yeah we’re doing fine
As long as there’s no time to cry
We’re healthy, yeah we’re healthy still
I’m sorry I can’t save you from evenings we spend weeping
Behind locked doors where no one has to know

I’m Feel Like Telling a Story.

So read it if you want.

I remember the first nights I spent when I first moved into the UCLA dorms, the nights I spent the first three nights at the Hedrick Hall rec room. I suppose going to that room changed my life forever: that’s where I met Veronica, the person who I ended up rooming with for the three years following; that’s where I met Marco, who I went out with for about two years; some other people I met there were Will, Eric, Mike, Connie & Tin, Danny, and Joe. We all congregated there for the next few nights, promptly getting to know each other. I remember Will, Mike, and Marco playing pool (that’s when Will hated my guts and wanted to kill me–no seriously. I saw it in his eyes). And I remember Eric competitively trying to beat Joey at ping pong. I mean, we didn’t call him Superman for nothing, right?

A few months later, trying to get all up in the LA scene, I found out that there was gonna be a party at the old Weezer house! I STILL get jitters thinking about it! I quickly asked everyone around me everywhere if anyone would be interested in heading out there to check out the party! (Supposedly, the party wasn’t supposed to be made public but someone had posted it on the Weezer site and BAM every teenybopper–me included–migrated out there.) I found out Joey was also loved Weezer! Yes! He was the only one I found that would go with me! But… how were we gonna get there? Turns out Joey’s mom was gonna drop something off for him or something or other but he said that she could drive us and drop us off there. Tight! Cept… being the youngest, only girl of an overprotective Chinese family, I was freaking out because I barely knew the guy and I was willing to hop into a car with his mom that so coincidentally was gonna be around? Uhh… for Weezer? I’M WILLING TO TAKE MY CHANCES than to EVER lose an opportunity like that! I was totally on edge in the car but the house wasn’t too far away so we got there soon enough.

The closest I thought I’d ever get Needless to say, the party was REALLY fun! There were a ridiculous amount of fans from all over the place–I remember meeting people who drove from Arizona just for the party! Dedication! And I remember people that drove down from Fresno or even the Bay just to check out the joint! (Wow. We totally got there in like 15 minutes from UCLA.) Joey and I oohed and ahhed at all the parts that we recognized from the “Say It Ain’t So” video. A pic I took with the rugged wall from the background of the video! Awesome!

I was most definitely living off of some high for the few hours we were there. Everything was pretty much as seen from that video. A really small place. And we even sat on the washer/dryer! It was the closest I thought I’d ever get to Weezer. Joey actually went off to explore the neighborhood a bit while I stayed and socialized with folks. (I even met some folks from Nerf Herder!)Soon, it was time for us to head back to the dorms. But… how the HECK were we gonna get back?! Uhhh we were waaayyyy to newb to figure out how the bus system worked, and no one we knew had a car to pick us up (we barely even knew where we were). So… we walked.

We walked from Olympic & Bundy all the way back up to Westwood (about a 6 mile distance) around midnight-time, in unfamiliar grounds of LA, and I was with a some tall guy who I barely even knew. I mean, he’s REALLY tall and could pretty much kidnap me and do what he would with me with 100% ease. And so… we walked, and walked, and walked. After a few minutes, I realized that the challenge was actually trying to walk with him. Since he was so tall, his stride was SO much bigger than my dinky little legs. But the cutest thing was that I think he was used to walking with shorter people so I think he purposely walked shorter so I wouldn’t be panting my way after him! Finally, we got back to Westwood. We probably got back to Hedrick around 2 or 2:30AM.

I guess after walking with him that whole time and chatting with him, I started realizing that he was genuinely a sweet guy. I remember him saying that he wanted to be a vet, and I think to this day, I think he was the only person I met in college that said that they wanted to be a vet. I thought that was pretty awesome!

A couple of years passed and I’d see the giant on campus and he’d always greet me with such a friendly smile, waving with his big hands. It was just the mutual understanding that our relationship was built on those days at the pool hall and our major infatuation with Weezer. It’s no surprise that I found out Joey also went to the same Ozma shows that I went to.

Ozma, a “Weezer-like” band, had broken up, and I remember how Joey and I would IM each other about what we were gonna do, and how sad it was that we were at the last Ozma show without really realizing that it was gonna be their last show. (And also sad that the audience was dumb because of all the ridiculous teenybopper Rooney fans and all their parents that stole all of our space.)

But then… OZMA GOT BACK TOGETHER! AND they were gonna have a reunion show in LA! YESSS! We went to their last and were gonna go to their re-first show! YESS!! As soon as I found out, I rounded the troops. Eugenia and batz drove down from the Bay, and I hopped into Joey’s car once again to meet them at the show (or did Eugenia ride with us too?). On our way there, I caught up with Joey to see how his last year was going. Unlike a lot of people I’ve known, Joey was 100% still going for his dream of becoming a vet. Right on, man, right on. We chatted about I-don’t-know-whats and we laughed about things I don’t remember. All I know is that we were totally excited and jittery cuz… well… cuz Ozma got back together and we were going to watch them!

Needless to say, the show was orgasmic and was more than we ever wanted! I had my favorite Ozma buddies with me and we were rockin out like… well… like Ozma had broken up and had gotten back together a year later. I remember how I was having so much trouble taking good pics cuz I’m so short and how Joey would take them for me cuz he was so tall! Hahah, remember how he said he had to stay in the back because he was so tall? He really waaasss SUUCCHH a sweet guy!

There’s really no way to fully describe his kindness, nor how to describe that smirk he had on his face whenever he waved hi to me. Rest in peace, dear friend. I wasn’t the closest of friends but I know for sure that we shared some AMAZING experiences together. Thanks for being my favorite giant.

Man standing with Joey in line for the Ozma Reunion show At the show

so tall he couldn’t put his legs under the table, hahah Joe Joey & Me

A lot of losses have occurred to too many people in the last few months. It’s all just another big reminder that we all need to really live life to the fullest. I say it all the time, but we really are taught to believe that we’re all going to live forever. Don’t forget that everything in our lives are so incredibly fragile that anything can be taken away in a second. It’s a shame that we all spend so much time being upset at each other, dwelling on the most trivial things. Times like these really remind me how important it is to really be happy and grasp every moment and to really appreciate LIVING.

Live. Love. Laugh.
And for goodness sake, please DRIVE SAFELY.

http://www.vvdailypress.com/news/perez_3245___article.html/road_highway.html
http://ucla.facebook.com/group.php?gid=6629791055
http://www.myspace.com/rememberjoeepperson


As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.


Pentagonal Date

Happy birthday, BFF James! You’re OLD!!! Thanks for being such a great sport all the time and going along with all the things I make you do!

BFF James & me

Yesterday was SUCH an awesome day!

Originally, batz, Nancy and I were going to have a triangle date: dinner and a movie! Yes! But no one objected to Dan and Nissana joining us so it logically became a pentagonal date. MY FIRST EVER!!!

  • Nancy’s ridiculous amount of Coke
  • Gossiped for an hour or so and headed off to pick up Dan, the half Mexican who has a part time job being one of those card flickers at Vegas.
  • Off we went to Montgomery to pick up Batz ($15?? $10?? FREE!!!!)
  • Nancy telling Batz and me what to wear: He didn’t wear his tie but still won over Dan’s heart!! Tooooo many “That’s what she said” jokes!
  • Remember, always be careful about CARMA!!!
  • And so the night starts off with talks about Herpes sticks
  • STDs vs. STIs (“Hey do you have STDs?” “No, I have STIs.” “That’s a tite car, k, let’s go do it.”)
  • Nancy’s extreme QUICKNESS at getting that parking spot! Good JOB!
  • Batz reserving the most intimate, dim-lit table in Genki Ramen for our pentagonal date! What a sweetie!!
  • Nancy being the small penis in Nissana’s car HAHAHA
  • “Hey, I can’t find it…” “Let me try to put my thing in your thing”
  • HEEELLLAAAAAAAA x99999 asian people at Finishing the Game! “Is this movie about video games? And will they finish it??” <3 batzmaru
  • Talks of dark alleyways
  • Passing by all the Finishing the Game cast and crew people and not really paying attention so that we could just get a seat and watch movies HAHAH whoooopppsss
  • The poor guy who sat next to us and heard us talk about our pentagonal date hahahahah (“Do you want to join us? We’d have to make it a hexagonal date tho…”)
  • Seeing everyone and their moms at the movie (Stephen Wannnnn! Who is indirectly connected to Batz? WEEIIIRRDD!)
  • Voicemail from Man of Dashboard covering Weezer’s El Scorcho! Uhh… awesome?!
  • Calling V while at Family, where all the azn gangztaz hang out (that’s why we saw Victor there last time!!! It all makes sense!!)
  • Batz being too awesome at pool.
  • Lesson learned: yelling “boobies!” out before someone shoots doesn’t work. It’s a reverse jinx. They always do x10 better. It frickin motivates them to do well :~(
  • Nancy slapped Batz when saying bye. HAHAH

Why, Nancy, why?? Ballaaa Nancy & Dan Nancypants Batz! Moh.. moh moh moh! iPhones are obsolete. Who? That’s cute, Nancy. Nissana & Batz! Teamwork! Ladies I LOVE him for obvious reasons!! Nancy & Dan One of the best dates I’ve ever had, FOR REALS! Pentagonal Date!

Big Changes for September 2007

A tremendous amount of things have been shaken up this month, namely my job situation. We didn’t get a rather large grant we were all expecting, and four people had to be laid off, me included. To a non-profit org, that’s a huge cut, just about 50% of our staff.

I admit that this is kind of an opportunity for me to step out and pursue my personal goals for some more art development but it is nevertheless unfortunate for the organization.

So… that’s been the last few weeks. My health insurance coverage ends next week so I’ve been cramming in all my doctor appointments diligently. On top of that, I spent a week planning for the LMAONADE BBQ (yeah, talk about priorities, right?) and Henry’s leaving for Riverside in a few days.

LMAONADE was awesome, as expected! Ivan and I got to Tillman around 11AM last Saturday morning to scout out the scene. Thank GOODNESS we got there early cuz we probably wouldn’t have gotten any tables there if we got there later. (PHEW! hahah) Did you know that reserving one table there for three hours is $120? UHH yeah that’s why we didn’t do that.

It was a splendid time with volleyball, football, short basketball, four square, meat, meat, meat (including steak, oysters, hot links, and lots and lots of chicken), and a ridiculous amount of alcohol. Around 8:30PM, we shuffled over to our house, where Vincent, Scott, Ivan, and two of Ivan’s coworkers played drunken wiibowling: every time someone gets a strike, everyone else drinks; every time you get a gutter ball, you drink. They of course decided to drink with the Remy Martin. I went to shower for 20 mins and when I came out they stopped wiiing and went on to holdem (using Settler pieces), followed by an intense game of Settlers!

kird, dren, alvin, lori Jacob & James Sarah, Mauricio, Nova Lowell kids UCLA folks jeremiah henny how did she not move? scott henry & steven

In other news, I’ve totally been on a puppy craving. Lindsay, a suitemate at work, recently got a little 6 month old Chihuahua, which I usually totally don’t care much for, but man… this little girl’s so irresistible. She’s got ears little black ears like a bat. Wilson next door has a dog too. Goodness… if there’s one thing I’ve been waiting for my whole life is to live on my own and prepare myself for having a dog. I’m still waiting for that day!

Okay it’s 4:30AM and I have to go do a blood test at 9AM. I need to get my hair cut tomorrow… it’s driving me nuts.

You totally came and left… (that’s what she said.)

Every so often, I come home, turn on my computer, sign onto IRC to go to my regular channels to find that someone I know passed away.

Everytime, it’s the weirdest feeling. Sure, I’ve never met 90% of these people in person but when you’ve been chatting with them for the last few months, years, and some even a decade now, it definitely isn’t some whatever relationship that should be undervalued. Most people I know wouldn’t really… get… the situation really…

[22:37] <Scorpion> You pick and ill follow.
[22:37] <hotm4mlolz> THAT’S WHAT SHE SAID
[22:37] <hotm4mlolz> LAWLZ
[22:37] <NyquiL> oh christ
[22:37] <NyquiL> dazo come back
[22:37] <NyquiL> i don’t know how to work this damn thing
[22:37] <hotm4mlolz> you know you love me.
[22:37] <NyquiL> ^
[22:37] <Scorpion> You miss your lover already?
[22:37] <Scorpion> He just left =]
[22:37] <NyquiL> you missed it crai
[22:37] <hotm4mlolz> YOU KNOW I MADE YOU SMILE
[22:37] <NyquiL> you missed it crai
[22:37] <hotm4mlolz> DON’T LIE TO YOURSELF ANYMORE
[22:37] * hotm4mlolz is now known as Craisin
[22:37] <NyquiL> i don’t know how to work this damn thing
[22:38] <NyquiL> total set up
[22:38] <NyquiL> and you dropped the ball
[22:38] <Craisin> hmm? i dont care
[22:38] <Craisin> :)
[22:38] <NyquiL> you know you do

[15:08] <NyquiL> yawn
[15:15] <nignite> yawwwwww
[15:15] <nignite> n
[15:16] <NyquiL> that’s what she said
[15:23] <Craisin> my roommate got me a shirt that says “that’s what she said”
[15:23] <Craisin> ahhahaha
[15:23] <NyquiL> shameless exploitation
[15:24] <Craisin> i’m not exploiting anything~~~
[15:24] <nignite> thats terrible cray
[15:24] <nignite> burn that shirt
[15:24] <NyquiL> shameless!
[15:24] <nignite> burn!
[15:25] <NyquiL> man i’ve got some bad beer shits
[15:26] <nignite> sucks
[15:26] <nignite> no beer for me last night cuz of todays game
[15:26] <nignite> and now i wish
[15:26] <nignite> i was drunk last night..
[15:26] <Craisin> hey nyquil
[15:26] <Craisin> wanna do the great gorilla run with me and my friends
[15:27] <nignite> BUT TONIGHT IM GETTIN DRUNK INSTEAD!!!!
[15:27] <nignite> HEHEHEHE’
[15:27] <Craisin> http://www.greatgorillarun.org/faf/home/default.asp?ievent=223430
[15:29] * nignite (~BeeBop@bas7-toronto12-1096781281.dsl.bell.ca) Quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer)
[15:31] <NyquiL> hmm
[15:32] <NyquiL> haha
[15:32] <NyquiL> that looks awesome
[15:33] <Craisin> i’m trying to come up with a team name for my friends and i
[15:33] <Craisin> i cant think of one!
[15:34] <NyquiL> man if i can i’ll come, stay at my friend’s place it’s right down the street from golden gate park
[15:39] <NyquiL> and yeah i can’t think of a name either…
[15:39] <NyquiL> not something you really prepare your mind for
[15:39] <Craisin> hahahahah
[15:39] <Craisin> i wanna come up with something punnnnyyyy
[15:40] <Craisin> i’m waiting for my friends ideas before i start a team
[15:40] <Craisin> anyhow i’l llet you know when i set stuff up and you can decide if you wanna run with me or not
[15:40] <Craisin> and if you’re afraid of seeing me
[15:40] <Craisin> i’ll be in a gorilla suit
[15:40] <Craisin> :~~(((
[15:40] <NyquiL> don’t worry i can pick you out
[15:40] <Craisin> you wont have to look at mai face :’0~~~~~
[15:40] <NyquiL> of a group of 1000 gorillas
[15:40] <NyquiL> that look exactly the same
[15:40] <Craisin> hahahaha

[18:50] <Craisin> (hey nyquil i was over in sausalito yesterday and i thought about how i still dunno where you are)
[18:50] <MisTa> papa john’s is gonna be here and i dont wanna watch tb
[18:50] <Craisin> <3
[18:50] <MisTa> tv*
[18:50] <NyquiL> hah
[18:50] <NyquiL> glad to know you think about a total stranger
[18:51] <NyquiL> creepy
[18:51] <Craisin> SECONDARY E-FRIEND
[18:51] <Craisin> FOOL
[18:51] <MisTa> lol
[18:51] <NyquiL> it all boils down to stranger
[18:52] <Craisin> k fine, i’ll never try to remember where you’re located
[18:52] <Craisin> ever again

The Bay Bridge was closed all of last weekend so I had to take the Golden Gate through the North Bay to get back home. I saw Larkspur on the way back and I figured I’d come back and tell you that I finally knew where you are now! Jerkface.

There. I made the name of this entry one that actually works. Happy? That’s what she said jokes just won’t be the same anymore… but I’ll keep saying them wrong… just to spite you. <3

R.I.P. dear friend.