Hello,

Yep, I’ve been MIA for a bit from both my “rl” social world and the e-world as well. It usually takes me a couple of months to adjust to a new job. So… have you missed anything in my life? Nah, not really. I’ve just been working and sleeping for the most part. :)

I know… boring update. Okay okay, I’ll get into details about my latest interests:

Design

I’m loooovvviinnggg my job right now and how the diversity of things I get to do in my role as a designer–ranging from extremely creative work to the creation of an internal wiki. (Yes. I admit it. I very much so enjoy being a wikimaster to ensure that information stays clear and consistent to my preference. Wa ha ha ha! *throwing arms up in triumph*)

Financial Plans and Future Goals

I want a house. I won’t be buying one anytime soon but I’m saving up for one. Hopefully, people will just give me money for no reason to help me reach my goal! ^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^

In the meantime, I’ve been more money conscious–and thank GOD I have a job right now to save up my money! Watching my savings acct grow is definitely fun to watch (I sit there all day watching it jking). I’m glad I’ve been resourceful and frugal over the last years which has helped me save up. I’MMA GET A HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!! *power fist pump!!!!!!!*

Dog

In the last month, I’ve reflected back on some of my earlier life interests to see how I’ve tried to achieve my childhood dreams. Tomboy–check. Artist–check. Dog–wait, what?!

Yes. I’ve always, always, always wanted a dog, probably since the first time I laid eyes on one. I guess I’ve forgotten this because there was just no hope with my parents getting one. In fact, it became kinda routine for me to pop the question regularly, “Can we get a dog?” And with eyes rolling and people scoffing, the responses would range from an immediate “No way” to the Cantonese equivalent of “In your dreams!”

Why the doggy hate? Nah, it’s not that they hate dogs, it’s the practical reasons (go figure, right?). They go traveling a lot, my mom’s an OCD cleaner, and well… they’re just done with taking care of kids. (But… actually… IMO I think they MISS taking care of kids… I digress..)

Anyway, I live with Brent now in a condo that fully allows dogs and pets and all this wonderful happiness and joy! And when I was unemployed, it was the PEERRRFFEECCTT time for me to take care of a dog with allllll my free time! But…. my brother owns this unit. He says no dog.

SAAAADDD FAAAAACCCEEEEEEEEEEEEE GAALOOOOORRRRREEEE

I’ve decided that in order to achieve or at least start working towards one of my long-standing childhood dreams, I will be raising enough money over the years to buy my own house. When this has been accomplished and if I’m still financially sound after paying my life earnings to property tax and all that mumbo jumbo, I WILL GET A DOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Call it a lil of a John Locke syndrome–”Don’t tell me what I can and can’t do!!!”

I shall prevail.
I WILL fulfill all my childhood dreams in my lifetime!!

Health and Exercise

Okay, I get it. I should exercise.

I’ve registered for a membership at the YMCA and have been going to the pool at least 3 times a week. I suck at swimming now, but.. oh well. At least I’m trying, right? It feels GREAT to get into the pool again and to regulate my breathing.

Brent and I have been eating healthier in the last few months too, especially because we have deliveries from the Farm Fresh To You program. Basically: fresh (SUPER fresh), organic, local farm from the Napaish area come out here to drop off a box of vegetables and fruit every two weeks. It’s definitely pushed us to cook new things! Plus, it really feels sooo good to eat yummy fresh produce–there’s no comparison in taste! Interested in the FFTY program? Let me know if you want a referral to get a discount!

Okay I actually have to go swimming now. Will continue more later with a follow-up post and pics too X_X

Ahhh okay it’s been a while since I’ve actually sat down and done a blog post about the things going on my life.

Last month, I landed myself a pretty exciting job at a local design studio in Oakland! I feverishly trained for several weeks, getting to know the ins and outs of my responsibilities. I spend a lot of time maintaining our client’s sites (content and design updates), have worked on brainstorming new designs for new clients, putting together print pieces, and just trying to keep my head up above the water. Barely, it seems!

When I get a new job/position, I usually go into MIA mode for a month or two to get used to the big schedule change. Which also means I’ve been maxing out in GRANDMA mode! Get to bed by 10, get up around 7:30.

I had to drop most of my classes this semester so I wouldn’t completely kill myself. I’m only taking one class now, which I absolutely LOVE–Intro to Animation Principles! I’m really enjoying the experience of creating animations. The problem is that I spend about 9 hours staring at a monitor for work, and I’m usually exhausted by the time it’s time for class. It’s so difficult to make it out, but when I get there, I always feel so thrilled about new ideas, and seeing what my classmates have created too! Unfortunately, I’ve been utterly behind on my animation work because I just don’t want to kill my eyes.

Since my eyes have been taking a beating, my weekends have just trying to chill out at home, relaxing, not straining at my computer. Just spending some good time with Brent, and occasional friends that may come over. (This weekend was the first time I saw my friends in a month! Yayayayay!!!)

I’m learning lots and am extremely fortunate to get to do things I love right now! But, as usual, the perfectionism in me just doesn’t want to fuck anything up. It’s just one of those situations where the stress that is created comes mostly from within.

Oh well… gotta HUSTLE, right?

I’ve got tons of personal projects in the queue…. just don’t know when I’ll have the energy to do everything at once again. :)

Most of my life, I’ve always been thought to be one of those always-happy people. Lately, I haven’t felt very happy.

Not that I’ve felt mostly sad or depressed, but I don’t have the HIGH on life that I used to have in my day-to-day life.

Is the effect of my living in limbo, right now? Is this because of my many insecurities? of myself?

Whatever it may be, I’ve been stuck here for the last few months. I don’t seem to laugh as much, don’t seem to smile as much, don’t seem to enjoy my time as much. A shame, really. I WANT to live every day up, but it’s become fairly mundane and…. un-exhilarating. Unchallenged, every day a slight variation of the past, I’m living the cycle of what I criticized most from the corporate, day-to-day jobs that I disliked. Ironic, since now I have all the freedom to do whatever I want.

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