I’m so sorry for being 100% COMPLETELY TOTALLY NOT EVEN PART OF OUR SOCIAL WORLD.

I haven’t talked to my friends for like 2 weeks… who knows what’s happened these days. I’m pretty convinced that Eugenia’s gone and had two children: Amanda Man and Emmanual Man; Pean has converged into one being like Goten and Trunks as Gotenks (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h_hQV_lEmUk); Norvelle has probably moved beyond casual sleepovers at Brents and they’ve probably gotten married and are in that phase of their relationship where they have regular arguments and roll their eyes when the other asks for something; J probably has won like 10000000000000000000 car shows and probably made his own Scion from scratch, welding his own metal and such (or otherwise just lives 100% out of his totally-live-outable Scion).

As Ahh Cee would say, “I can’t take dis no mo’!”

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh gootttaaa save monneeeeyyyyy. Gotta save up for LOST tour. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Things to do aka buy:
- Dude my monitor is totally breaking.
- Cell phone mysstteerriousssllyyy deletes contacts from my addressbook…. and then 2 weeks later, they appear again!!! PHANTOM SIM CARD.
- Underwater case for cam. Oh, btw friends, I finally got a new cam since my last one b0rked. SD1100 w00t.

In other news, I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hyped for LOST! I wish I coulda made it to Comic Con this year SOLELY for the Octagon Global Recruitment booth + LOST panel discussions!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh the fantasy world I want to live in! I can’t wait for Season 4 to come out (Dec 9, 2008 -_-) so we can do another marathon LEWLZ.

Upcoming events:
- July 31 – TechKaraoke w00t!
- Aug 15-17: Lake Tahoe
- i-am-8-bit
- Sept 6: East Bay AIDS Walk
- Sept 20-27: LOST Tour
- Nov 23: CELINE DION @ SAN JOSE LAWLWALALWALWLAWLZ!!

Okay. Time to shower and sleep.

ahh.
AHHH.
… AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

WHY THE HECK HAVE I BEEN AWAKE FOR THE LAST HOUR AND HALF?!

And the only things I can think about are the things I need to do 5 hours from now when I go into work.

ahhhhhh!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

News: I’ve recently gotten the position of being team lead/manager at work. I mean, it wasn’t SUPPOSED to be this tough a transition. It was SUPPOSED to go smoothly. I was supposed to continue doing development work for a while before fully transitioning into assigning work to teammates as well as doing SOME client interactions.

BUT GUESS WHAT HAPPENS. BABIES. YEAH. THAT’S RIGHT. BABIES HAPPEN.

My project manager had to take an early paternity leave as his wife gave birth two weeks earlier than expected–that is, IMMEDIATELY when I began my role as lead. FUCKED.

Oh, well, what can you do right?

In the middle of the ultra busy season, mixed in with some of our MOST FAVORITE clients, me being a complete n00b to the job, I’ve spent 55% of my week pulling my hair out at work (figure of speech: don’t worry v, i’m not reverting….. yet! ;_;) and the other 45% SLEEPING. It’s sad to say that I have 0 energy for any type of non-work related conversations, and I have to pass on all social activities that occur after work. Yesterday, I slept for 11 hours (8PM – 7AM). Tonight, I went to bed at 9… and here I am…. AWAKE AT 3:45AM, running through my head the checklist of things I need to do in a few hours. Consequently, I gave myself a major headache right now… My body HATES me SO much!!

As the ultimate determinant: I haven’t really felt HUNGRY–not the same kind of hungry where I plan my meals in advance, not the same kind of YEARNING for certain types of foods–all week. How could this BEEEEEE?????? THIS CAN’T BE HEALTHY. This can’t be RIGHT!

Yeah, I’m bitchin’ and complainin’.
Yeah, I signed up for this on my own. But don’t get me wrong–I anticipated that it would be tough and stressful. But I did NOT anticipate not having a project manager around. I don’t even know how to begin explaining what that’s like when I know close to nothing about who what where when how I needed to handle things on Monday morning.

And it 100% does not help that almost every client thinks they should get royal treatment or that they should be the exception amongst all other schools. It’s STANDARD for schools to think they’re the “exception.” And if by chance they ever stumble upon this blog: Check it, homies. You’re NOT the only school we deal with. I mean… what’s the big deal… it’s just students applying to college… ;)
(Stupid disclaimer: there are all my own personal thoughts. not of my employer. done. whatever.)

Okay. Done bitching.

“It’s not World War III”–unless you’re a in a chapter of ESHEN’S GAME!!!

Hello,

I’m participating in the East Bay AIDS Walk 2008 to benefit local community orgs in the fight against HIV and AIDS. As generic and template-esque as this text sounds, I’m actually typing this out, believe it or not.

Anyway, raising money for local orgs to help those immediately in our area. Money’s more concentrated for closer/more immediate people in our communities.

Please help, if you can: http://eastbayaidswalk.kintera.org/craisin
You can also join my team, too: http://eastbayaidswalk.kintera.org/eobs

Thanks,
Estella

Art class ended a few weeks ago. Here’s an update on some pieces I finished off with. (I wonder what my grade was for class?? *shrug* I wonder if leaving class early every Thursday to get home in Lost made a difference?)

   

  

   

   

Aaaannnndddd a new toy!! A wacom tablet!! (that is 0% mine.)
I drew this at Brian’s two weeks ago on his Wacom Bamboo tablet. It’s SOOOO addictive! Anyway, just messing around:

And since btam is gonna be away for a few days, I’m “taking care of the tablet” for him hohohoho:

Ummm… I didn’t know what to draw… and I was stuck thinking about clothes.. and figured since all the previous Figure Drawing pics were all nude…. *shrug* why not? HOW LUDE!!!! Anyhow, Wacom Intuos3! It draws soooooo smoothly! Both the Intuos and the Bamboo took some getting used to, but is verrryyy addictive when combined with Photoshop capabilities: layer, UNDOING!?, opacity changes (notice the underdrawing?), and probably other stuff I have yet to utilize! SOOOOO FUN! sooooooooooooooooooooo addictive!!

There’s something happening on November 4th that means a LOT to me, and I need ALL of your help. Never before have I felt so passionate about this, and I KNOW it can’t happen unless YOU help me with this battle I’m fighting.

On November 4, there will be a measure on the ballot that, if passed, would again ban same-sex marriage in California. If passed, it would amend the recent CA Supreme Court ruling that declared that it is unconstitutional to limit marriage “between a man and a woman.”

There’s a reason why the CA Supreme Court made its ruling: denying the 1000+ federal/state rights that come with marriage to people who are just as committed, just as in love, just as human as our heterosexual family and friends is simply unfair. Seriously, we’re in the 21st century. Can’t we just LEARN to accept that there are DIFFERENT peoples in our world? Point is… we’re all PEOPLE and we ALL still deserve the legal protection and rights.

I’m urging you to PLEASE help me fight against the November 4 initiative that would ban same-sex marriage AGAIN.

Above anything else, please VOTE NO against the ban on same-sex marriage. If there’s ANYTHING I could ask of you this year, THIS is it. If you’re not registered to vote, click here to do so ASAP so you won’t forget to do so later! In order to vote on November 4, you MUST register by October 20, 2008. Do it NOW so you won’t forget and miss the deadline!

Secondly, please know that the people that initiated this proposition are very well-financed. We need all the support we can get to fight this battle! If you can, I urge you to contribute to the campaign to fight back! Since we’re all very busy people, this is the EASIEST way to contribute your time to the cause. http://www.equalityforall.com/

Third, spread the word. Remember in the Transformers movie (the OG 80’s one) where Megatron said “Constructicons, merrggee for the killll!” and Springer says, “Come on, Arcee! Megatron’s making his big push and… we’ve got… to push…. back!” We need all the help, all the friends and families, all the ALLIES we can get to push the bad guys BACK. Please inform and teach people who are not as educated about why this issue is unfair and discriminatory.

If you’ve always wanted to MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THIS WORLD, if you’ve always wanted to make CHANGE to our society, stop sitting on your ass. Get the fuck up and DO IT. I just gave you three ways you CAN make a difference. It’s important to know that in a battle like this, every person, every cent, every minute, every VOICE counts. So please, Eugenia, Norvelle, Veronica, Greg, Greg, Greg, Greg, Greg, Brent, Jeremiah, Nancy, Batz, Henry, Christine, Darren, Debby, Mauricio, Jackie, Conrad, Ivan, and EVERYONE that READS my blog, PLEASE help me in this battle I’ve been fighting for the last 10 years of my life! Make it HAPPEN!