I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world. --Albert Einstein After managing this site for well over four years, I felt motivated to completely change not only the layout of Craisin's Hoshi, but to also change the content of my treasured domain. Perhaps it was the move into college, or perhaps it was just the right timing, but there just seemed to be a calling for change. Heck, maybe I've even grown. Well, not a lot has changed, but it is nonetheless different. And of course, infinite 'thank you's to Ryan McLean and Starshadow Communications. Enjoy! 03.00.06 | 9:00 PM PDT     The move to college made quite an impact on me, and I couldn't have enough Bruin pride. This layout was as personal as it could get. Completely built on my social circles and my art interest, it was important for me to incorporate my friends and art into this design.     I finally got around to learn coloring in photoshop. I drew the above girl by hand, inked her, and did everything else in photoshop. I had this layout from April of 2003 until April of 2005.     Here are some old entries to get the gist of the site: 10.28.04 | 10:29 AM PST This is a post for everyone I know, that knows me, that I will know. by ssilence     Why do we live our lives thinking we'll live forever?     Think about it. It's true. The one question everyone constantly asks children is "What do you want to be when you grow up?" It's expected of us to grow up, assuming that everyone will live to be as old as our parents, our grandparents, and all those other old geezers around us. That's why everything we do is in that perspective: we'll always have time to do this, we'll always have a chance to do that. We take life for granted. We take time for granted.     Why do we live our lives thinking we're invinsible? Emotionally, physically, we're so weak. Even the most well-built of us bleeds from a miniscule papercut. That's how weak we are. People live, thinking they can take on the world, but we always forget how fragile our bodies are. It somehow reminds me of a napoleon complex... The emotional instability needs no defining..     I'm not sure what I'm blabbering about. But it just seems like everyone that's close to me has been going through bad times. In a matter of two hours, I've read about death, pain, depression, hurt, alienation, giving up, heartbreak, losing friends, and the list goes on. All were related to my friends. It makes me sad to know that people I care about so much are going through such horrible experiences. For what it's worth, I'm sorry.     I want to do something for you. I can't just sit here, knowing that my friends are having problems and not do anything. I want to live my life understanding that we DON'T live forever, that we NEVER know when it'll all end, and that we are more fragile than an egg. At least eggs have shells. I'm sorry if I haven't been a good friend, I'm sorry if I haven't taken the time to listen to you. I'm sorry for taking you for granted. Maybe I should concentrate on school, maybe I should try to do better for myself... but I really don't value those things over my friends. I shouldn't.     Today, I want you to have a really good day. Whether you read this today, tomorrow, three weeks later, or eight years passed. I want you to have a good day. If you think this doesn't pertain to you, you're wrong. Because everyone I know deserves a good day. I want you to have a good day, and realize that everything around us is extremely frail, and can be undone in a matter of seconds. And if you have a good day, then pass it to someone else. Give them a hug, a hi, a compliment, anything. Make other people feel good, even if they're strangers. Because even THAT means a lot, having a stranger console you.     I'll stop rambling now, but I just want you to know that I care about you, even if I've known you my whole life, if I haven't talked to you in over year, if I haven't seen you lately, if I've just met you last week, if I don't even know you yet. Be safe. I care about you. And I hope that nothing bad will happen to you. I'm sorry you have to go through all these things right now.     *super hugs*     I love you. Yes Dear & Michelle's Bday Mike Matsubatzmaru, Man, Jin, Scandalousness, V's Bday, Venice Beach January 12 - February 20, 2005 Finals & Winter Break Parking lots, Dr. Mario, Funnels, Zach's, Steven's, Baby, New Years, Fenton's, much love.. [ Page 1 | Page 2 ] December 10, 2004 - January 4, 2005 Thanksgiving & Pre-Finals Home & Bowling, Zeta Gamma Associate Class Auction, Cheesecake, För Elise November 24 - December 4, 2004 Summer of 2004 Way too much fun. Thanks for the wonderful summer, you guys =) [ Page 1 | Page 2 | Page 3 ] August 8 - September 16, 2004 Copyright © 1999-2005 Estella Tse All Rights Reserved.